There it is. That pity, that understanding layered with the utterance of his name from the person he needs to hear from the most.
He's sick of it, yet he craves it. Hates it, but loves it all the same.
Just like Dimitri's presence on its own, it's a drug he knows he needs to wean himself off from, but can't help and indulge in anyway.]
I abandoned you.
[His chest tightens.]
I didn't try hard enough to stop you.
[Unheeding of Felix's anguish, the memory continues playing.
Dimitri pauses as he looks over Felix's shoulder, at something seemingly far away.
"Glenn..."
A punch flies from Felix, and with a scowl, he says:
"Look at me."
Dimitri's eye snaps back toward Felix as he catches that fist, baring his teeth as he starts to squeeze. He only lets go once he looks away, still looking at some place beyond Felix.
"There is no place for him here," Dimitri says.
]
Seeing you now, I can't help but think... if I just tried some more...
[Felix hangs his head, a familiar wetness swimming in his vision.
"What the hell is that supposed to mean?!"
Felix shouts from behind, indignant as Dimitri turns away and retreats. He starts to follow, wanting an answer to that after Dimitri's nonsensical response.
"Answer me, damn it!"
Felix chases after Dimitri, but his pace is half-hearted as the distance between them grows... until Dimitri eventually vanishes into the distance, leaving Felix with his thoughts.
]
I... could've...
[...saved you.
But the words themselves don't make it out of Felix, the lump in his throat making it impossible as tears start to stream down his face once more.]
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There it is. That pity, that understanding layered with the utterance of his name from the person he needs to hear from the most.
He's sick of it, yet he craves it. Hates it, but loves it all the same.
Just like Dimitri's presence on its own, it's a drug he knows he needs to wean himself off from, but can't help and indulge in anyway.]
I abandoned you.
[His chest tightens.]
I didn't try hard enough to stop you.
[Unheeding of Felix's anguish, the memory continues playing.
]
Seeing you now, I can't help but think... if I just tried some more...
[Felix hangs his head, a familiar wetness swimming in his vision.
]
I... could've...
[...saved you.
But the words themselves don't make it out of Felix, the lump in his throat making it impossible as tears start to stream down his face once more.]