[So ready is he to be pushed away again that it takes him a couple of seconds to actually meet Felix's eyes. But the moment he's bracing himself for doesn't come. Instead, he finds his own feelings being reflected right back at him, a gaze that silently pleads with him to somehow hear the words left unsaid.
And against all odds, he does. He's also struggling to reconcile his feelings with the fact that this is Felix, but not the Felix that will continue to work and live alongside him once this spell breaks. He isn't sure he would even be having these feelings if he were. As dearly as he loves him, there are parts of Dimitri that Felix just hasn't ever been able to understand.
Not until Felix, too, hung a gravestone around his neck.
This understanding of theirs wouldn't be possible as they are in their respective timelines. That's what makes it feel wrong, like he's taking something that would never be given to him under ordinary circumstances. Yet when he sees that same shameful yearning he feels etched onto Felix's face, his will to adhere to the boundaries of friendship evaporate. With his heart in his throat, he leans down and accepts that unspoken invitation, pressing a gentle kiss to his pursed lips.]
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And against all odds, he does. He's also struggling to reconcile his feelings with the fact that this is Felix, but not the Felix that will continue to work and live alongside him once this spell breaks. He isn't sure he would even be having these feelings if he were. As dearly as he loves him, there are parts of Dimitri that Felix just hasn't ever been able to understand.
Not until Felix, too, hung a gravestone around his neck.
This understanding of theirs wouldn't be possible as they are in their respective timelines. That's what makes it feel wrong, like he's taking something that would never be given to him under ordinary circumstances. Yet when he sees that same shameful yearning he feels etched onto Felix's face, his will to adhere to the boundaries of friendship evaporate. With his heart in his throat, he leans down and accepts that unspoken invitation, pressing a gentle kiss to his pursed lips.]