[Well, so long as he's not going to be sitting there secretly wondering the whole time if Dimitri is a ghost. Dimitri runs that hand through his own hair instead with a humorless laugh.]

I will not deny that it is disturbing, but it makes sense. Considering my behavior, my survival was a miracle. From the point of view of most people here, I have died.

[Brow creasing slightly, he glances away.]

There is no use dwelling on what might have been.